My (19F) pussy hurts so bad from how horny I am when I think about older men

I know it’s kinda weird but salt and pepper and grey hair turns me on so much.. my pussy literally is throbbing. My friends think I’m kinda weird for it but I can’t help it. Thinking about an older man fucking my pussy and loving it makes me wanna cum so bad… I just wanna feel an old man’s cock inside my little pussy. I know my pussy is little bc ive never had anything inside but I know I want a big, older dick so bad